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I learned something today.. I'm human.. while I'm pretty sure I knew that already.. for some reason I was exempting myself from the human race when it came to running. Like many other new runners, I was trying too much to soon. Luckily for me, I didn't injure myself.. It did though become very clear to me why I've quit before. I expect too much too soon.
So I'm going to continue running.. but I'm not going to expect myself to be super women and be able to run 5 miles by next week (not that I was.. but I was expecting to be amazing.. or something). I have crummy shoes and need to get new shoes ASAP.. and socks.. hehe.. I got pretty nasty blisters today. Oh well.. I've done pointe before.. I can handle blisters.. but a lot worse can happen if I don't get new shoes.. I think the biggest thing I have to overcome is the lack of patience I have for my mortal body..haha. Its good that I'm ambitious, as I imagine thats very helpful.. but I'm being a little too ambitious.
So I'm scrapping the running plan I was on..for now. My plan was 3 runs a week, two being the same and the last adding a half mile. I plan on continuing that plan.. just my plan right now is to be able to run for a certain amount of time, instead of miles. That feels alittle more attainable. For the most part I can run a mile.. but I'm trying to do too much.. I'm trying to time, distance and speed.. I think I just need to work on time. I've been running a mile between 10.5 and 11 minutes.. not horrible.. So if I run by time I'll be able to work on my endurance.. and I do well by time instead of distance.. If I say "ok 5 more minutes", I tend to push my self better than "ok the corner is a mile.." weird.. I need to work on how hard I hit the ground.. although I think its my shoes and not totally me.. as I'm pretty light on my feet.. at least I think I am.
So far this week I have done 4 miles. My first week. Its been full of lessons already. I look forward to 6 weeks from now.. when Its become a habit, and is hopefully a little easier.. I don't ever expect it to be easy.. Doing 8 hours of ballet wasn't easy, but it was doable and enjoyable. So I look forward to being able to half hour to an hour or running and it being enjoyable.